Hard to fit what i want to say in a question of 1000 words but really need some advice?

i was abused as a child developed ocd and then when l i hit 20 i went to hospital and suffered a huge trauma in there. i developed ptsd. my life became a mess, dropped out of uni, stopped modelling, dancing all the things me has a young person did. life was a huge fog of anxiety until now.





im 25-im getting over my pstd and ocd. you'd think id be happy but im not. why-because my life stopped at 20. i dont really know who i am now. who im supposed to be at 25. i have to start again. my mum says im still young enough too but i feel old. also i want to change my my image completely. i want to 4get the abused girl i was and catch up on the things i missed the past 5 years like go travelling, go on dates, go clubbing, wear mini skirts and feel sexy (not a big deal to people i know but because of my past would a be a huge truimph to me) in fact i want to change my image completely so im a totally different girl from who i was so why do i feel to old to do to this. am i ?Hard to fit what i want to say in a question of 1000 words but really need some advice?
hell love, for a minuet i thought i had posted that question, with out realiseing it.i am 46yrs young i too was abused from 5yrs -13yrs , i too have ocd . and other mantal health issues all coming from what i call the dark years. you will never be that little girl again (thank god i hear you say) you wont either be the girl who messed up(through no fault of yours) but the young woman you are now, well this is a new ball game. you dont walk around with a sign that states you have been abused, only the ones you choose to tell will know this ok ,,you must get this right in the front of your mind. now,for every day you spend not being the person you would like to be. your abuser still has that hold on you,you are letting them still abuse you and they dont even know it!! now if you get out ,dress how you want to. hold your head up high,start this new life you will infact be giving that person the v sign. the v being for VICTORY because you will be in charge in the driving seat so to speak.every step towards your new you will be one more victorious,step. you see these people can defile our bodies , play with our minds but becaues we survived,becaues( even with ocd and all the rest) we are still around to tell our story. we are winners. and can be just as good as the girl next to you at the bar.go on and change your image if you want to,go out and get that new wardrobe of clothes, find that all important new job. then look in the mirror girl because youve won!!! im not saying it will work overnite , it will take time rome wasnt built in a day. but enjoy every minuet you will be like a beautyful butterfly coming from the cocoon every thing else will fall in place HONEST.one last thing trust you mum cause us mums only have your best interest at heart .one step at a time baby girl xxHard to fit what i want to say in a question of 1000 words but really need some advice?
You feel too old because of your experiences. BUT.........you are not too old..........in fact I would think that these days 25 is just about the right age :-) Now..........if it was me wanting what you do I know I would be too old because I am 53!


So, find your courage..........you obviously have some......and go for it. Might not help but when I was a lot younger I read a book and grasped its title as a motto. It was called ';Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway';
No stop thinking about it and just do it!!


The only thing holding you back now is you :)
you're never too old. you probably feel that way because when you ';lost'; those 5 years, you probably felt like life was accelerating and felt like it left you well past your young adulthood. this doesn't have to be true. if you're trying to start over, sometimes the best thing to do is to face everything that you want to change. don't let abuse fester. make sure all your emotional wounds are healed, and then do some soul searching. find out, not even so much who you want to be, but who you truly are deep down inside, and that is definitely not an abused, ocd, pstd person. those were things that happened, but they do not define you. pray about it and seek out who you really are. never try to be some idealistic person you're not. you would be surprised great a person you are deep down. God bless and i hope this helps!
i see a lot of me in your question. i had it rough for the most part of it. looked like a dark cloud was always over me, and it was always raining on me and not on others. i still fight the feeling that i belong to a museum, yet am not even 23.





i think that in your heart of hearts you know what to do. you gave an answer to your own question. that you need to go clubbing, wear mini skirts......whats stopping you? i'll tell you what: fear of the unknown. an dthat is the hardest to conquer. yet a day a time, a step at a time, thats all it takes. before you know it, you are there and you wonder how you ever managed to live all your life without it.





you've already taken the first step, talkning about it, and admitting that there is a problem. so how about you take the next step? love your self and nurture the inner you to be confident in yourself/





take yourself out to dinner, lunch, a walk in the park, lotsa me-time. and from me -time, hit the club in that mini skirt and that sexy smile......





.a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step, you've taken the first one, go for it gal, a step at a time. you dont do it all overnight otherwise if it fails you come crashing and wont have much strength to give it another go....so one day at a time





hun, life begins at 40 anyway, so you are yet to be born. live it up gal...............cheers
Thank you for sharing what is going on with you at present, you mention that you dropped out of uni, stopped modelling and dancing and wish to forget the past experiences of hospital and catch up on things to change your image, although the image that would be a huge triumph appears to be the way you were. You are a product of your past but by sharing and seeking help hopefully you do not have to be a prisoner of it. Once again thank you for sharing and hopefully you will find the necessary assistance to allow you to repair yourself.
no of cors ur not 2 old lol i no exactly hw u feel(sort of) u wana be out with the old and in with the new. if you wana do these things jus go ahed and do them evn if u dont feel completely comfortable or u feel stupid bcus u can onli move on and get used to something new by trying it and really pushing yourself. and wen u think of ur past don let it get u down jus think of it as your past life bcus ur 2 good 4 that 2 keep bringin u down. gd luk xxx